It has been such a huge adjustment for me that during the pandemic my energy is constantly and consistently zapped. Of course, on top of the stress of corona life, I’ve said before that this season is eerily similar to the newborn stage with Stevie, where I am needed at 100% capacity ALL THE TIME. So the low energy comes as no surprise. But it’s still hard for me to accept. Especially now that we’ve been doing this for nearly 5 months. I get angry at myself and my body for not being able to “snap out of it” and get shit done. I’m disappointed when I’m begging Stevie to play alone and have no desire to entertain him. I’m keeping up with the necessities of laundry and exercise and keeping everyone alive… but anything else still feels hard.
I am also realizing that I place a lot of self-worth on my level of productivity, so it’s hard not to think of myself as “useless” right now. I know it’s not true — I’m not useless! But I have to keep reminding myself. Being busy isn’t everything. Running a side hustle isn’t everything. A full calendar isn’t everything.
On that note, in my current state of non-productivity, I felt pretty darn accomplished this week when I got a few things listed to my Poshmark. My goal was 20 items and I posted 8. But 8 is better than zero! Right? I’m practically an efficiency machine!
outfit notes
This homemade tank top is from last summer and (as with almost anything from last summer) it has a few fit issues. Luckily it’s just a little tight in the arm holes, so I think I should be able to fix it. The arms are tricky to get right on a self-drafted pattern anyway, so I knew it might need adjustments sooner or later. Hopefully I just don’t end up making it worse. Haha.
lightweight clay earrings
necklaces click here for $10 off: short (18″) / long (20″)
homemade tank (similar / similar +size)
vintage levi’s (similar / similar +size)
taupe sandals WEARS: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4
allyship notes
Love, love, love this cause and wanted to share it in case you have the means to donate right now. The Conscious Kid is now raising money for COVID-19 Rent Relief Fund going to families across the country. They’ve already sent $380,000 to Black families and many more need assistance now. I know for me, there’s been no other time in my life where I’ve felt more grateful and privileged to have a safe place to call home and couldn’t wait to contribute. Because everyone deserves that same assurance. Hope you’ll consider a donation and that they can raise a lot more money to help those in need.
loves,
jaana