I am 40! I think my age finally matches my grumpy insides! Haha!

I quickly ran through a few deep thoughts about getting old this morning with my husband. Expectations for myself, the weirdness of time (because time is freakin’ weird), how far we’ve come, and what’s coming next.

But to be honest, this birthday has been a lot easier than my last several birthdays. No tears or disappointment or torturous overthinking of my life. Which was completely unexpected for a milestone birthday in Jaana-Land.

I’m mostly just feeling… grateful. What a nice, strange feeling!

Sure, within 10 minutes of Stevie being home from school, I was already annoyed with him. And I’m exhausted as always. But outside of that, there’s so much I’m looking at through rose-colored glasses. And I want to remember to soak in all that good while I’m figuring it all out.

And I’m so glad I have people in my life who truly went out of their way to make my 40th birthday (and the week leading up to it, and the coming week after it) a really, really special one.

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You can see my past birthday pictures here: 39 | 37 | 36 |35 | 34

loves,
jaana