Now that the post-holiday slow down has commenced, let me tell you that it actually has not slowed down at all!  We’re booked, every weekend full, until March gets here.  Sometimes looking at my calendar makes my head hurt.

But that’s beside the point.  This is to tell you all a little about our Christmas.  It was a little weird for me this year.  Kind of like Thanksgiving.  We were together and it was nice and it was fun and it was really good to be in Utah.  And it went by way too fast.  But with the loss we’ve experienced in 2013, and all the challenges we have faced individually, things felt different.  I feel too much like a grown up sometimes.  I don’t wanna!  I’m tired all the time.  Instead of staying up late into the night giggling, I’m anxious to hide under my covers and just close my eyes.  We also missed my brother’s family so much.  There were no other cousins visiting.  No raging game-a-thons.  Hell, I didn’t even get a picture of me with my mom or my siblings. I can tell we are still sort of in an adjustment period.  It’s alright.  It could be worse.  But I do look forward to more silly, crazy family times.  In the near future, if that’s ok with y’all.  Love you guys.

And now I miss Christmas.

— lots of burgers on this trip — — i made my sister pull over so i could get out and look at the horses —— family fun night at my step-sister’s place —
— i could look at this picture all day long — — santa left a note! — — after weeks of showing him christmas trees and lights, he finally started to notice them — — morning faces! — — rockin’ my xmas outfit for ya —— my nephew drew stevie the best picture ever —
— these two knuckleheads fought over EVERYTHING, right down to the cardboard boxes — — and once in awhile they’d secretly play nice — — angry face — — ticklish face —— cute kitchen helpers —
— post dinner snooze — — skyping with dad — — his going home face. sigh —